Friday, March 16, 2007
i can't face the world anymore
i can't face the world anymore
firstly, i wanna take back what i've been venting and all.
secondly, I DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE EVERYONE NOW.
i went for cac meeting in the afternoon and yeah it was fun. worrying is a sin. yes i know i'm worrying now, but i can't help it. i totally regret what i said to him. and this post just for you, really.
P/S: i'm really sorry about what i said just now. i didn't even know that i was being so harsh or maybe worst, sarcastic. i didn't even realised it until, alyanna told me. after i put the phone down, i felt so bad. and i told myself, i have to tell you by TONIGHT that i'm really sorry. if only i can take back those words i said. yes i know, telling you this RIGHT here in my blog is pointless. i know seeking your forgiveness all never work. i'll be frank with you, i don't even have the courage to face you in school right now. actaully i'm suppose to tell this to you face to face but i didn't take the risk cause i know, i'll just cry right infornt of you. i guess even seeing you around in school will send tears rolling down. maybe now you're thinking, why do i have to meet this troublemaker girl or whatever. well, my bottom line is, i'm really sorry for what i've done to you, not only just now. i don't mind you not forgiving me. my intention is just to let you know that i'm sorry.
i can't take it anymore. i'll just end my post here. i'll just wait and see what monday brings.
bye♥
secondly, I DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE EVERYONE NOW.
i went for cac meeting in the afternoon and yeah it was fun. worrying is a sin. yes i know i'm worrying now, but i can't help it. i totally regret what i said to him. and this post just for you, really.
P/S: i'm really sorry about what i said just now. i didn't even know that i was being so harsh or maybe worst, sarcastic. i didn't even realised it until, alyanna told me. after i put the phone down, i felt so bad. and i told myself, i have to tell you by TONIGHT that i'm really sorry. if only i can take back those words i said. yes i know, telling you this RIGHT here in my blog is pointless. i know seeking your forgiveness all never work. i'll be frank with you, i don't even have the courage to face you in school right now. actaully i'm suppose to tell this to you face to face but i didn't take the risk cause i know, i'll just cry right infornt of you. i guess even seeing you around in school will send tears rolling down. maybe now you're thinking, why do i have to meet this troublemaker girl or whatever. well, my bottom line is, i'm really sorry for what i've done to you, not only just now. i don't mind you not forgiving me. my intention is just to let you know that i'm sorry.
i can't take it anymore. i'll just end my post here. i'll just wait and see what monday brings.
bye♥
what we could have been, 9:14 PM.
