Monday, October 27, 2008
playing with fire
hi.
today is a really really super long, complicated day for me. i woke up at 7am due to
something, was fully awake by then even though i only had like about 4 hours of sleep. forced myself to sleep back and woke up at 10am. slacked, got ready then headed to john's house for strITwise. went up to his house with kat and mary. we discussed about strITwise for a while then started crapping. we wanted to watch movies, any kind will do but each of us just cant agree on what to watch so we went surfing the net instead. kat, john, josh, kyle and me debated whether the girl in one of the videos in YouTube looked like aly or mariel, hahaha.
we got pretty restless and decided to play block catching, as usual. john's block got too many dogs already, tssssk. one time, kat and i could hear a number of dogs barking loudly, haha. one owner put his/her dog outside their door -.- but we had fun :D ended the game with strong wind blowing us, damn nice! went back to john's house, slacked then kat and i left, mary left half way while we were playing block catching. kat treated me to oreo latte cause i needed a girl talk, badly. thanks bbff, mahal kita! before leaving, we camwhored. we had some retarded moments here and there, hahaha. then left around 5.30pm.
home was damn quiet without the three kids inside. dad didn't allow me to use the com, grounded for one month. but you're wondering why im still able to update right? :D well, i managed to figure out his password since he changed my password so yeeeeah. anw, i ddin't wanna die from boredom so decided to play rockband. played till 7plus and my wrist was hurting badly cause i didn't bother stopping to take a rest. gaaaaaah, too many things inside my head today. was emotional for the rest of the night. mom asked why the face but i just smiled. this is so screwed, i swear. well, at least i managed to laugh pretty alot today.
i better get going. bridging class starts tmr, siggggh. oh did i tell you that john and josh are kinda weird people? recently, they saw aly's evil twin in fairprice and today, they saw my evil twin at the bus stop in front of my house while sending kyle home. the worst thing is, that " evil twin " of mine was smoking , tsk. i shall end here!
bye.
ps: i just cant wait to get away from singapore, sigh. it's too complicated living here.no guys will understand how a girl feel, never.i sense weirdness in this post. like there's no life, sigh. whatever.
what we could have been, 11:13 PM.
hellohello.
today is such a busy busy day, lol. it's my second last day for cat class cause next week there's LTC and next next week there's that carnival thing. i'll be going for the last day of class, next next next week. so from now till the next day of cat class, i got 3 more weeks to REALLY finalize my confirmation name. oh, kat and i go pastoral care for our pastoral attachment. it means taking care for old people. we wanted to " care " for children yet got for the old one but it's okay.
after class, followed the two johns like dog, the usual! ate at macs, as usual. same old routine la, boringgggg. then decided to go kat's house :D we watched A VERY SPECIAL LOVE. ahhhh, so niceeee! we got like super kilig, big time. i pity archille, haha! then walked to hometeamNS to meet my father and uncle. took taxi home then rushed to change for swimming. went together with the solano family. talked talked talked with ranelle. before swimming, i ate alot. i was damn hungry even though i ate lunch, screw my stomach. went swimming and stuff. retarded stuffs happened. showered and made our parents wait till they got impatient :D we were the last few people to leave jurong swimming complex, heh.
we had a mini girl talk. siggggh! here i go again! i miss my childhood daysssss! i rmb playing at the playground, jumping here and there like some retard. a few guy friends even called ranelle some monkey girl cause she jump everywhere, lol. okay i better shut up, tsk. reached home, drink two cups of coke and dinner past 10, so that kept me awake. im supposed to be in my dreamland now but yeeeeah, COKE. i suddenly feel high, dont know why. ah screw it, dont wanna vent my high-ness here :D
goodnight and byeee!
45moredays!
i wonder what will happen on the 50th day or so, sigh.
for now, it'll be neutral.
if i say i moved, something will pull me back.
if i say i'll stay, something will push me away.
what we could have been, 12:42 AM.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
over and out
chinese daily horoscope ( lol, i knw! )
Feeling more comfortable with yourself may be the result of reconciling old disputes and fixing the damage that has been done. Continuing to take inventory on resentments will allow you to live a healthy life. With this weight off of your shoulders, others will see the difference.
There's also a strong chance for romance.sigggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh.i just cant do it.im forcing myself.so screw it!ugggggh! ):life is so blahblahblahblahBLAAAAAAAH.
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i wanna run away to Lipa in Batangas! omg, they're selling a hacienda there! hacienda means i dont know how to explain but there's farm where you stay ( google for it if you can :D ). the background is some mountian view and there's three ponds in the middle that are made for swimming! i swear the whole thing felt like some fantasy. just by buying a piece of land there cost $30k! that's not counted building your own house. dad jokingly asked me to faster get a boyfriend and ask him buy for us a piece of land =.= i swear i want to live in batangas! it's about 1200m above sea level and it's cold, even during summer!
guess what? there's animal farm there! even ostriches would be around! dad wouldn't mind buying but it's too far away from where we originated - Iloilo. but i heard near my dad's place in Santa Barbara, they're building a hacienda too. kat! that one i was talking about? nice sunset! :D it's a nice getaway from singapore, tsk. oh yes, the mountain is Mt Malarayat.
a few pictures will be posted up. ewwww, the pictures look small. if you care, i know you dont care, but just go see see. (:
http://www.raincreativelab.com/hsb/hacienda/
the video shown to us just now was more awesome and the talk the lady gave made me almost kneel down to my dad just to invest to that place. oh yeah, followed my dad to corcone or whatever hotel and shopping mall to meet up with some of his friends. that was how i get to know that place. some of my dad's friend had long ago bought a land there, sigggh. they said about 100 slot left! ahhhhhhhhhhh! ): i wanna stay there! it's an exclusive area or whatever they call it. i dont mind studying in Batangas. i'll drag justin along :D uhhh, i cant live alone in pinas! im so totally not familiar with it esp BATANGAS!
enough whining. i better go off and sleep! still need to wake up early for tmr. exco meeting and stuffs to do. gah, this post is pointless ... AGAIN. goodnight!
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what we could have been, 12:32 AM.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
23, farewell
hellohello!
today's the so-called last day of the school. school isn't close, no it's not close.
kay, i'll shut up. today was PTC and i dragged my mom to school cause i dont wanna wait till saturday just to collect my freaking results. i dont wanna prolong my death, haha. so sad thing is, i passed three fail three but i failed my overall percentage. thank god i didnt retain, scaryyyy! i think i was shaking while waiting but my mom made it worst, tsk. ms bhavani said i get distracted easily during lesson and sometimes im damn blur. after that, did SC duty.thanks kat for waiting for me and helping me write those stuffs. (: i swear today's duty was a bit retarded and i kena jack sia. ugggggggh, dont wanna talk about it. thanks endy, so much! after duty, went off to jurong entertainment and had late lunch with kat then off to library. afterwards, headed home. was sleepy and planned to sleep after i reach home but decided to take a walk around. something spoil my mood but whatever! tmr, i shall TRY to wake up early just to give my LTC form to mrs norman. sigggggh, no late mornings for me!
okay, i shall go and end off my point-less post. bye!
gemini's horoscope.Slow down for just five minutes to add up all the clues you've been getting lately. Perhaps you're in the right place to really figure out that one mysterious hottie.
it's already 24, bye f.
as i was walking home,i stopped those tears from falling.you proved to me, im a major fool.thanks ah! sigh.
what we could have been, 11:52 PM.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
rewind
since im using my dad's account right now, i decided to look through my childhood days and thought maybe i shall post it up :D im bored.
i like this of all pictures :D

spot john! spot john! and josh! :D

my long lost childhoodfriends. i still see one, wenda or smth. john's inside! :D



that baby is me, tsk. looks like a guy!



me and michael gallano - pinas.

the place where i spent my mornings and afternoons :D

me and michael perera, uhhuh.



primary 2! :D

you could really see how much has changed, i think.

yeeeeees, it's me. tsk, hard to believe.

my mom looks fierce, lol! i was getting baptized! :D

photo quailty sucks, tsssssk. most pictures are being scanned that's why. i miss my childhood. okay i shall shut up and go off and read book :D it's 1.52am O.o
bye!
what we could have been, 1:21 AM.
Monday, October 20, 2008
receive the power
hellohello!
wow, i managed not to use the computer for three freaking days. okay two freaking days :D saturday's youth rally was awesomeeeeee! okay, some parts werent that awesome. i loooooooove the praise and worship part! imagine over 1800 youths in TP sports complex or smth, wearing the same shirts, jumping to the songs. i swear that feeling was niceeeee! im excited to be confirmed :D cause yeeeah, just excited. one part, some girl screamed like seriously. she could be heard cause everyone were praying silently and yeah that's when the girl screamed. she received the holy spirit, how cool can that be? the scary thing when we receive the holy spirit is we either faint, scream, laugh or cry.
john, kat and i hanged out with the st Joseph people like hilary. after the youth rally, kat and john followed me to my place and partyed a little. alvin and ramdzan were still there but left soon after. played a short basketball game then sent kat to the bus stop. hanged out with john, josh and kyle till about 1 or 2plus am. in between, two police cars stopped by at different timings. tssssk! they were just doing some area check cause that basketball court is known to have teenagers smoking - underaged smokers. so all we did was sit down and talk till our dads decided to go home.
sunday was some usual day. went 12.30pm mass with kat. so little pinoys cause all went to some filipino family day at some park. hanged out at westmall after that then went home. i slacked the whole day, as usual.
today, school was as usual - boring! we had some sex talk, again. nothing new, nothing old. it's the same thing la. yknow what? they might as well say, dont have sex at all. looking at how AIDS are spreading, by the time we wanna get married, mostly everyone would probably be infected by AIDS -.- oh well, it's something we cant take lightly so better listen to those people. tsssssk. till 12.30pm, played uno with gen, vivian, ziying, janice, irah, michelle and kat. hilarious, seriously. brings back good old primary school memories. tmr, no school! :D so it's slacking the whole day again. time to rot! (: kat has to go for some science course in JJC so no outing, tsk. ): bbff, 9 more days! :D
gaaaah, today just isnt my day. even the slightest thing never made me laugh, sigggh. my dad screwed another suppose-to-be happy day. btw, i passed three subjects and i think im able to be promoted to sec4 but the sad thing is idontknowwhy im not even happy! dang, dad's high pride is infecting me. i feel so nonsense, blaaaah! i shall go off right now.
goodbye!
ps: i think 23rd is something really really i dont know. something BIG always happens on 23rd, sigh.
gossssh, you seriously dont get it huh?never mind. 23rd would be the last you'll hear from me. (:
what we could have been, 11:56 PM.
Friday, October 17, 2008
names
these few days, ive been pondering what to choose for my confirmation name. i dont know why they're like rushing us right now to choose a confirmation name and get a godfather or mother. we still got about 7 to 8 more mnths to go for confirmation if im not wrong.
i thought i'll stick to elyssa, another spelling for eliza; The Chosen; Unique; Precious.
it's not because of the meaning of the name, i just find the name nice :D seemed attracted to it somehow but i came upon this name, hadassah; joy. there's camille too. ive googled for names but nothing catches my damn eyes. i think hailey and stephanie are nice names. reminds me of aly's close friends in canada, haha. i like the way filipinos prononce daniella ( dan-nye-laaa ) something like that la. ah screw it! tsk. i dont think whatever im saying has any links and i aint making any sense.
i shall ask God for sign, sound too holy. i'll end off this random post of mine! im getting sleepy. (:
Regina
This name originates from a Latin word which means ‘queen’. It is derived from a title of the Virgin Mary.
what we could have been, 12:01 AM.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
nothing but mistakes
blaaaah! ):
know what? i was damn damn damn damn tempted to take that rusty penknife in my pencil box and tear my maths paper into thousands of pieces till i see nothing but nothing (?). ignore that stupid line. but i swear i was. paper 1 was full of careless mistakes that i swear i almost killed he an. imagine losing 23 marks just for that paper 1. gaaaaaaaah, screw it upside down! ): i failed geography, as usuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal! this time round is cause i didn't even touch geog the night before, i concentrated on chemistry so if i didn't do well for chem, i'll just jump down the building.
next year, retain or not, i'll try try try try try tryyyyy to freaking open that geography book of mine few nights before exam ( like i can like that. ) the only paper that made me happy was SS, i unexpectedly pass that paper and i didn't really study for it. kay whatever! i still got pure history, physics, chemistry and english to go. know what? i seriously need to kill myself soon. i cant believe my english isnt improving at all, i feel that. siggggh, i have a feeling im gonna retain. see my results, no hope already. i just hope that tmr, the papers i see will make me feel more better besides physics.
at least the accompany of bbff has cheered me up. i think i talked too much today :/ omg, i saw
alot a few of my primary school friends that ive never seen for a long time. it's 11.10pm now and i bet i cant sleep cause i slept on the sofa, my sleeping pill, for 4 hrs. i think that sofa has some curse cause i'll always fall asleep no matter what, even though i drank alot of coke today. mom and aunties have stated preparing for the party on saturday, sigh. i shall eat all the food they've cooked before anyone is able to eat, i bet they're gonna finish it by the time i come back. youth rally is 10 freaking hrs long! i heard a couple of churches are going with their youths, cooooool! :D
shall go off here and look for something to kill time. bye!
my hands turned cold,cold sweats appeared,my face went hot and red,and my heart started racing.i felt those today.too dramatic as it may seem but true.♥
what we could have been, 10:56 PM.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
selling mondays
hellohello!
i just remembered something after reading kat's blog, haha. ytd, when we were on our way to the Borders something retarded happened. we were on the escalator going down when suddenly the escalator jerked and we jerked along. the whole scene is damn retarded cause i was happily messaging and kat was happily singing some song when the thing took place plus the escalator stopped when we were in the middle and no one was behind us at all. gooooooooosh, couldn't stop laughing. i guess we're
too heavy to make the escalator move or maybe it's kat's singing :D
and last night, kat started going oh so emotional cause she misses her childhood. awwwww! hahaha. she's damn lucky la! grew up near the ricefields while i grew up near the beach plus she has 5 years of memorable memories there while i only have 3 years and the rest is in sg. but still, all those childhood memories are only left to be reminisce everything and at least it was something memorable to look back to. right now, i think im paying back for all those happy days of mine. cause ... life sucks big time. no no, im happy with those around me but it's just that i dont have alot of fun adventures unlike i used to have when i was young.
warning! emotional part, you can dont read.happiness for me now is like some short-lived happiness. if i ask for long happiness, i'll be given long sadness. so i'd rather shut my gap and dont wish for anything. i dont believe in wishing on birthdays and blow that candle so that it'll come true, i dont believe in dreams coming true, i dont dont dont dont believe any wishes would come true. i'd rather think that way than having hopes of having that wish to come true. uggggh, i sound like some sadist right now! cause whatever i wish for turns out the other way round and it sucks big time cause it crushes my hopes into millions of pieces. the most ironic thing is that, im looking forward to go back to pinas cause i can see lots of stars and maybe a shooting star and make a wish. like it'll ever come true. if i does, good then but if it doesnt, it proves that wishes aint my thing. ah heck, im getting emotionally emotional ( is there such thing as that? )
i shall go off and find something un-emotional to do like watching ISWAK2. (: oh, sorry for this uber i-dont-know post.
goodbye.
right now, i dont know.my instincts are telling me,it's useless.
what we could have been, 1:16 PM.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
two steps forward
EXAMS ARE FINALLY
...
O to the V to the ER!
OVER!
OVER!
OVER!
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!
yes yes, exams are like finally as in finally over! :D but there's that bridging thing going on for 2 weeks, ugggggh! but sadly, there's still strITwise to concentrate on, sigh.
today, i waited for bbff. she came and we had a hard time deciding on where to go - OCH, east coast, a day in town or library. i quickly cancelled out library cause i didn't bring my library books. last night my bluetooth off la :D inside joke. OCH is soooooooo far away and there's like only two of us, no fun. east coast also another one so left with town. chatted nonsense with endy a while then we left already. so headed to town, went to my mom's office to get extra money then headed to shaw house.
we watched The House Bunny. im rating it 4.5/5. (: it's damn hilarious and touching at the same time. it's about friendship, a little on family, a little on love and being accepted who you are. at first, i thought anna faris looked kinda old but after a while i think she's hot so i kinda agree with john on that. and i expected the show to be kinda boring but the climax is niceeeeeeee. i dont know for you people but for kat and me, it's nice. (:
after that, we went to the Borders and started looking at books :D at least we wont be tempted to borrow cause we need to buy it. pretty ALOT of interesting books like the girlogy or smth. then we walked aimlessly, ended up in wisma. so we went window shopping then headed home since kat has to go off. omgomgomgomgomg :D kay, never mind. reached home and found my dad home, tssssk. he said im like a lost dog like that. go inside the house, never say anything at all, lol! im like so used to coming home and no one greeting me at the doorstep unless my siblings are being random that day and start jumping on me like they've never seen me for years, haha.
anyway, tmr there's no school :D october 15 tmr :D bbff asked me to go cycling with her but the whole thing also not confirmed. ah heck, maybe tmr i'll watch taiwan dramas :D okay, i think im getting crappy, tsk. mom was shocked when i told her alvin and ramdzan might sleepover our place, lol! i shall end here and finish watching ISWAK. (:
goodbye!
57moredays!
everything is up to you.
i know that you know.
make the right decision, dont regret by the end of the day.
what we could have been, 7:26 PM.
Monday, October 13, 2008
a day filled with nonsense
hellohello.
vivian asked me to blog so yeah, decided to blog.
this morning/afternoon, went to church to take jusper home from school. he requested for me to bring him home, lol! i swear that guy is damn freaking random! i rmb way back in 2006, aly kat and i were taking jusper from school for the first time. we were 10mins early so we slacked near St. Claire hall there and the next thing we saw, it was 11.25am. we started running down, all the way to their classroom until this lady shouted: girls girls! yout're not allowed to be here. wait in the canteen. omgulay! we lost face, big time! the whole thing was hilarious and i was smiling just now, remembering how retarded we were. it was raining heavily today, not a good start.
anyway, my afternoon is filled with HeAn's nonsense! lol. guess what, i cant wait for saturday after all :D even though im gonna miss jusper's bbq birthday party, i still can eat the left overs right? and besides alvin said he MIGHT wait till i come back and maybe he'll sleepover together with ramdzan. wootsss! :D hopefully we're allowed to, just like old times but the difference is it aint christmas eve. maybe ... saturday would be a great day. the only thing im gonna miss is a game of rough basketball with the peeps, siggggh. okay, enough on that. suddenly so emotional. ):
i think i better end this post and eat my late lunch and hit the sack, i mean the books :D i went high just by looking at rayver, sam milby, john lloyd and enchong dee. there's still michael cruz but his picture is too small to see :D i better get going and look for chocolates. i dont know why i suddenly love them, hmmmmmmmm.
goodbye.
rayver rayver rayver! ♥

samuel milby, the hotness! ♥
this could be a week to rmb or even a month to rmb :D
but i dont like it when one has to suffer for his friends' happiness.
58moredays!
58moredays!
58moredays!
what we could have been, 2:19 PM.
hellohello!
gosh, im still alive even though i lack of sleep. last night, i finally fell asleep at ard 5am and i automatically woke up at about 8.30am. i doubt it's the sounds of my brothers fighting for the computer that woke me up. i stayed lying on bed for 30mins until bbff called me. i only got like 30mins to get ready by then and i managed to be at the bus stop before she came :D kat! twice in a row! :D usually, she'll have to wait for about 5mins for me.
class today was normal, kinda boring. omg, the prayer quiz is so bullshyt! the answers were like sooooooo opposite from our answers. today's group discussion wasn't the normal one where lame jokes were being shared. we were talking about kayaking to OBS to church camp to 2012 - end of the world to shyt stuffs. mostly about those disgusting things in the sea, like eeeeeeeeew! as usual, it was an all-girls group. kat's group freaking noisy sia, haha. laugh freaking loud, haiyohhhh. class ended early again, as usual. hanged out with the two johns and kat. separated with the two idiots and had a talk with kat. omggggg, travelling ard pinas together with mariel and aly would be oh so fun! MARK reunion :D never mind, when the time comes.
at home, i was damn moody. not even enchong dee's charm nor sam milby's nor rayver cruz's charm can cheer me up. i didn't go high seeing them preforming, blaaaaaah! i fell asleep soon after YOUR SONG finished. that's when i felt a little better. right now, im fine, i guess. ive got to study that freaking physics tmr, sigggggggggggh. im 101% sure i'll fail 180 degrees. gah, october 16 is nearing! ): i better get going!
bye.
i didn't expect it to happen so soon. i didn't even expect it to happen at all.dont expect things to happen, it will happen unexpected.i agreee. (:
what we could have been, 12:24 AM.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
practical joke
):
i cant sleep and look at the retarded time now! ive got 5, no make that 4 freaking hours to sleep! and my stomach is making noises, uggggggh. i so totally cant sleep no matter how hard to try. i think i ate too much chocolate and speaking of that ... i didn't know chocolate could cure running nose and cough. i expected to lose my voice today due to too much intake of chocolate, on purpose. i even thought my running nose would go crazy and that i could finish one box of tissue. i finished all the chocolates, daaaaaang. sigggggggh, i think i need to force myself to sleep.
i feel so blaaaaaaaaaaah. i prefer all my yesterdays than today, sigggh. whatever ah regina!
♥
im so hungry hungry hungry hungry but ive got no mood to eat.
59moredays!
59moredays!
59moredays!
what we could have been, 3:40 AM.
hellohello.
just came back home like half an hour ago. parents called me the last minute to change and go to kyle's house after mass has ended, i didn't go for mass of course. so yeah, headed there and yeah the usual stuff. it felt kinda weird without aly. ): anyway, josh and kyle were telling me about SAW III and they made me watch it. i swear my hairs were standing 180 degrees! i was jumping and screaming cause it's freaking gruesome! im not 21 oookay! i cant take those stuff, ewwwwwww! then we had a random movie marathon. we watched part of Saw III, okay i forgot what's next but yeeeah. we did watch Hancock and Meet Dave, completely. a little of Love Guru and tried looking for House Bunny. i think that's all, i cant rmb. a sudden mental block.
when i came out of the room, my mom was being like some random human being. she put her whole weight on me! she's freaking heavy, ugh. my dad was another nut case. he started talking about family ties and shyt crap. i was practically tortured by those two. they even shot me random questions like do you have a boyfriend? how's your exam? and shooting me random stuffs like, about retaining and having a boyfriend. of course i know my dad's dont-get-a-boyfriend-until-20 shyt crap but of course i wont listen, duhhhhh! just a little rebelling would do :D but whatever, i got tortured. john took the same taxi as us cause they couldn't fit in, haha. then again, my parents started shooting him the same questions they asked me. like what the heck? drunk parents are more naggy!
i was sleepy on the way home but i guess the coke kicked in so now im soooooooo awake. ugggggh, class tmr again. and im soooooooo not looking forward to next week cause i'll be missing a bbq birthday party, dearest little annoying brother's birthday party. ive got youth rally on that day. mom said she cant change the date, daaaaaaaaang!
* bangs head on the wall 54387594837598345 times*
i better go off and find other random stuffs to do or maybe go off to sleep. ive got enough for one night, too many things to take in. hopefully tmr when i wake up, it wont be a dream.
goodnight.
what we could have been, 1:18 AM.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
he turned away
this song totally reminds me of the old days with alvin and ramdzan. i remember one party at my place, we were bored and hid ourselves in one of the rooms. we started to play that song and decided to make up a dance. we wanted to show our dance steps to our parents but they had to go home half way through so didn't complete. awwwwww, i sooooooo miss those memories. if there's a time machine, i'll be the first one to grab it and go back to those years. i dont like the present and the future is scaring me, big time!
the past few papers has been pretty okay. i noticed that i didn't study that hard this time round, major mistake! cause ... if i did study, i know could've have scored better, uggggh! anyway, ive got one more paper to go till it's time to party! :D im so totally looking forward to 18th october for the youth rally and 19th october cause maybe i'll be watching For The First Time :D hmmm, maybe i'll go and see Santorini someday. it seems like a really really nice place, so heavenly. i better get going, maybe i'll go for movie marathon :D i'll eat my lunch first.
i can feel the christmas spirit somewhere around my house, they've put up the christmas decoration already, haha. ugggh, with that small pathetic christmas there. germaine, faster grow uppp! i miss looking at tall tall christmas trees. ):
goodbye.
Every time that I get the feeling,
You give me something to believe in,
Every time that I got you near me I know the way that I want it to be,
But you know I’m gonna take my chance now,
I’m gonna make it happen some how,
And you know I can take the pressure
A moments pain for a lifetimes pleasure
ytd, i took that first step but it seems like you weren't interested anymore. i shall take one step back. that's for you.
what we could have been, 1:05 PM.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
have you ever thought about us?
hellohello.
i dont feel like starting on my art prep right now :/ so decided to update.
ytd was english paper, easy! tdy, maths ... paper 1 i still managed to survive but paper 2, something knocked me off and got lazy to continue. it must be the retarded english in Qn 1. so screwed, i swear it is.
left school early, went to westmall to get my concession then off to popular for colour pencils :D that retarded bryan keong said: wanna suck my dick? when i was reading chicken soup, got VERY shock. i didn't know he was behind. i almost screamed, damnit like ghost. mazliana and azrema were also behind. tyco tyco! hhahahaaa. then went home (:
my siblings are really ... ive got no comment. the moment i reach home, they were like: ate ( sister ), why you go home so early? one by one ask me the same qn, haiyohhhh. i guess they always see me going home late that's why. enough crapping here, i dont think im making any sense here. i shall go eat my lunch and complete my art prep. tmr is ss and art, urggggggh. 3 extra hrs. it's okay reg, it'll fly by fast like a .. plane? lol. i feel so crappy! my throat hurts, i feel feverish. danggg, i SO totally cannot wait for EOY to end.
goodbye!
64 MORE DAYS! ♥
ps: LE, so very sorry to disappoint you. :/
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it kept screaming,
asking me,
forcing me,
pulling me,
pushing me,
urging me,
to tell you how i feel.
what we could have been, 1:22 PM.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
to be adored
LUCKS FOR EOY EVERYONE!
damnit, i feel like killing myself.
lol, feeling so random.
okay i better shut up and sleep.
goodnight!
see you glorytofaith on 14th of october.
♥
i love you, maybe i do.
what we could have been, 11:54 PM.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
somewhere out there
67 MORE DAYS! :D
mall of asia, wowowee, manila bay, two cousins' wedding, late night outings with cousin, christmas, new year, shopping, shopping and lots more shopping, you name it all :D
ahhhhhh, im so excited even though it's still 2 months from now :D mom said we wont be able to do lots of shopping, ah screw that one! i'll get a job after exam so that i can go shopping :D ah whatever ah, planning this shyt right now. i dont even know if i can score well for EOY. the thought of retaining is ... i just dont wanna think about that word, uggggh. hmmmm, i doubt i'll be able to update this retarded blog for about 9 days or so. i guess i'll be back after EOY.
im so totally not prepared for EOY! come on, i havent touch on my art prep work! i havent try studying physics, chemistry, ss, history and geog! ): i shalln't slack tmr! i must and i will complete my art prep tmr since ive got everything i wanna do " drawn " in my head. left with drawings, uggggh. physics, chemistry, ss, history and geog can wait on sunday and the following days. im HALF confident for maths. will i screw this final exam? i dont know, helpppp! ):
10 more days till the end of eoy. how pathetic can i get? regina regina, counting down for end of eoy huh? screwed up! i wanna go eat choco before sleeping, a sudden craving for it. must be the cause of my period, siggggh.
bye.
what we could have been, 12:58 AM.
Friday, October 03, 2008
please dont let it show
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALY :D
hellohello.
hi, hello, hi. hello!
pardon for greeting that lady twice. today, she called me while i was on the way to school :D a great start for exam. thanks bff for wishing me luck. gooooooosh! news news news update kay? ♥
anyway, CLB paper today was da bomb! :D grrrr, i wrote both letter writting and compo! waste my time only, i could like grab about 45 mins of sleep for paper 1 :D paper 2, i DID try using my brain :D slept for 30mins :D okay, enough with the " :D " i went to church today at St Francis of the Assisi cuase kat called and asked me to tag along with mary, archille and her. so yeeeeah (: dad allowed, of course it's church. he cant say no to that. anyway, they had buffet after the whole thing and they even served wine. kat, archille and mary grabbed one. i was having a hard time juggling with the paper plate on one hand and the chicken lollipop on the other so yeah. mary didn't like it so she passed it to me.
so it kinda explains a little high-ness here and there, or maybe i sound normal here. okay never mind. i reached home about 10.30pm. i made it on time for my self-made curfew :D i didn't want my parents to think im irresponsible and whatever shyt crap so yeah. mom said i was TOOOOO noisy today, hahaha :D oh no, whatever. :D
I LOVE A
I LOVE E
I LOVE F
I LOVE J
I LOVE K
I LOVE M
I LOVE R
I LOVE U
bye ♥
what we could have been, 11:06 PM.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
fresh wine, party all night
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY
ALYANNA FRANCIA NATIVIDAD BULAO!
bff, i love i love i love i love you oh so much! ♥
if you're still here, i would be greeting you by now.
enjoy your big day alrights?
ps: hot news, you've got to update kay? :D
hellohello.
tdy/ytd, school ended 30mins earlier than the usual. half the day in class, i was suffering from cramp. ugggggggggggggggh, the time of the month! anyway, time flew by really really fast. lessons were so slack, like seriously. tmr/tdy, mother tongue paper. damn easy, can anyhow whack only. wont be seeing bbff again, sigggggh. went to church to pray then went home cause cramps almost killed me. i slept till 8pm :D actually, im sleepy right now :/ i did nothing but slack, like as if there's no EOY. ooomg reggggg, how can you do this? damnit, i feel crappy all of a sudden. it must be the mood swing, dang.
exactly one year ago on aly's birthday. ♥
i better get going! (: ♥♥
omg LE, i swear you're trying to kill me. bringing all your medicines and forcing me to eat it. nonsense.
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sometimes i love you, sometimes i dont.
maybe i just like you.
what we could have been, 11:55 PM.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
the lighthouse
goodbye september, hello october.
the month where i used to go bankrupt for the past 2yrs.
this year, it's different.
right bbff? ):
hellohello.
ytd and tdy was such a long and tiring day, i swear. ytd, the travel to tampines was one hell of a ride. i swear it was the worst ride of my life but im over it, uggggggh. the most embarrassing ride ever, whatever. we reached aloha changi at about 8pm, ate dinner and was a loner for the whole period. called LE to accompany me during that lonely hours, lol. i was sitting on the steps, about 10 metres from me is the sea. the strong wind was damn damn damn nice. i find that place romantic :D the whole scene would not be completed without a boyfriend to hug for warmth. okay, reg shut up. then walked back inside the " house " cause it was drizzling. it stopped then continue talking to LE. i was walking ard trying to find out where the LOUD talkings came from until i was called by three girls - priya, cynthia and sharon.
so yeah, we hanged out the rest of the night. there's nothing much we could do cause it was raining heavily. ( so much for laughing at LE cause he was " scared " of the lighting outside. it wasn't raining in changi yet. ) so anyway, we slacked and slacked. priya was playing the guitar and the rain got heavier, hahaha. anyway, i was forced to sleep by my mom. fell asleep in the oh so cold room at about 2am. next day, mom woke me up at about 9plus. no choice, ive got to force myself out of bed. ate breakfast then slacked again with the three of them. we ended up inside one room, telling ghost stories. we got freaked out cause some shadow walked pass twice, very fast, outside the window. i wasn't being paranoid or something but yeeeah. when cynthia tried walking past the window, her shadows looked faded, unclear. unlike the shadow priya and i saw. the shadow looked like it was walking past the curtain, freakyyyy.
anyway, we got kinda freaked out and didn't want to shower at first but we cooled down a bit so we showered. got ready and headed to OCH. at first i thought it was some haunted house or something. when we got there, i saw " Changi Hospital " then i was like O.O ohhhhhh nooooooo, old changi hospital! but we just stayed near the enterance. i took a few pictures, didn't dare to take alot cause scared got something come out :/ cynthia was the most scared one there, hahaha. i got ALOT of mosquito bites cause i was wearing fbt -.- we left ASAP then camwhored here and there. dad called cause i need to go but had to wait another 1 hr just to go home =.= we could've gone somewhere else and discovered another stuff, tsssk. i enjoyed my time with the three of them. it's really cool seeing other half filipinos in singapore. cynthia and sharon are half filipino, half chinese while priya is half indian half filipino. cool much? the coolest thing is that, priya and sharon were kinda exicted to go back to pinas this year.
at the bus stop with family, i told them about the changi hospital and woaaaaaaaah. we started talking about ghost. my parents believed it! my dad almost made us go there and take a few pictures since it was even numbers but two police cars went pass, lol. so yeah, headed off to ramdzan house. took 67 from tampines and i swear it took 1hr and 50 mins to reach cck -.- alvin was there by the time we reached and i swear i got bullied cause of my height. ): i stood in between ramdzan and alvin, they made me look small. urgggggggggggggggggggh! they started insulting my height, mean asses! hmph. anyway, took taxi home. so yeeeah, im updating now :D i need to go off and sleep now. this is one of my longest post. it's been pretty a long time since ive did a long post :D it's been a crappy yet fun day.
i cant even count how many times ive said i miss you to bbff. and LE is getting high every single minute. i'll end with something random. okay seriously, it doesnt mean anything so yeeeeah :D goodbye now.
GOOD LUCK FOR EOY PEOPLE!
/-ND+/ stupidities. says:
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RMSG. says:
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we typed this out and clicked send at the same time. it doesnt mean anything actually, inside joke :D
ps: LE, stop the cute thing!
70/69 more days! ♥
what we could have been, 11:34 PM.