it gets harder each day
sigggh, it's the last day of MAY! wait, why am i sighing for? shouldn't i be happy? oh well, ive gone through ALOT this may. it caused a huge unhappiness and shyt craps. i shall move forward and welcome JUNE! :D oh well oh well. im starting on my homework, yay! i heard there's a party to attend tonight. another late night cause it's one of our family friend. confirm they'll drink till they drop. and it's gonna be another late night for me again. ive been sleeping between 2 to 4am these past few days and im dying already.
anyway, i was suppose to go cycling with john and kat ytd but due to kat's running nose, we cancelled it. we'll be going next week so yeeah. wooohooo! we'll be on an adventure! :DD im sure it's gonna be fun, muahahaha. oh oh and the dentist appointment is cancelled! :D CAC retreat has been cancelled too, pffft. i want more more more adventure this holiday. i wanna make use of this freaking holiday and have fun laaaah! tsssssk. oh well, i better get going. i told dad i'll be using com for a while and i'll do my homework. im tempted to finish the final two episode of my bullfighting! ): argggggh, im offff! (:
byeeeeeeeeeeeee!
thanks MAY for a " great " month.
imissbestfriendsss!
memory lane
siggggggggggggggggh! i miss miss miss missssssssssssss old times! went for physics ytd and had a one-on-one " lesson " with ms bhavani but i still need to go back to sch on tuesday. never mind, for the sake of good results :DD i cant believe im gonna get help for my english. i din know i was THIS dumb. ive forgotten about verb and noun and adverb and subject and shyts :/ well, it's not even inportant, lol! tsssssssk. oh i'll shut up, im shocked that im talking about verb and all. arggggh, forget english!
anyway anyway, went out with my parents at night. was craving for something with dumpling :/ well, i was thinking of that day when alvin's mom taught me how to make dumpling soup. ahhhhh, tsktsk. then went to walk walk around. i was super uber full :D it was my the night before dinner, breakfast, lunch and dinner :D i feel feverish and i dont know if im going to be sick again or not.
so today, woke up late. kat and john went over to my place after their physics lesson. they waited for a while then headed to john's house. there, we watched another pinoy horror movie. it was like damn scary laaaaah! even thought we were watching something scary, we were like laughing and all. how retarded can we get huh? haha. just before the movie was ending, endy and faris came over. they waited for us to finish the movie then we went down to play soccer. tsssk, no mood to play so just became the goalkeeper. all i did was scream :D feel so feverish maaah. then there's the police car so we stopped cause we're not allowed to play under the block. went to the playground and played alybom. actually, we didn't want to sweat but too bad. then we played block catching. hahaha, we're retards i know. this whole thing was super random. played like crazy then end and faris left. kat and i left soon, sent her to the bus stop with john. then john walked me home, talked with him for a while.
so sooooo, at least my days are not being wasted. at least i dont have to stone and waste a few seconds of my life [ base on nicholas ng zheng ]. so that i dont have to think about stuffs. ive been feeling more better lately, especially ytd :DD tmr, i'll either go cycling with john and kat or swimming with them at kyle's place. i aint gonna care about this feverish feeling. i just wanna have funfunfunfun before this pathetic holiday finishes and to cover up on days that ive been dwelling on some stuffs and not having fun. i better get going, i wanna watch bullfighting :D zooomg that drama is tooo emotional can cry like hell, or maybe it's just me. hmmm ...
byeeeeee!
ma tapos na ang lahat to, i know it will.
it's crazy and scary at the same time
A survey by Mazliana
Please complete the survey & pass to 10 person. Happy completing! :D
1. What good or bad things happening around you now or few days ago?
everything's bad lately. im just having a very very bad mixed feelings and i wanna dieeeeeeee! ):
2. Live is a burden or happiness to you?
i shall say both.
3. If you have a machine to rewind back the past, what would you want to back to...?
ive got alot that i want back ( too slefish )
4.What is the most angry things that happened?
random small little stuffs.
5. Do you think your closest friends will betray you?
nope, she wont do that. i know she wont.
6. Who is the one on your enemy(s) list?
I don't have any enemy.
7. Which of those friends do you think is worth for you? & why?
kathleen&alyanna, cause they're always there for me.
and some more peeeps.
8. Have you done anything foolish because of a boy/girl?
nope, i doubt it.
9. What is the things you wish for?
i shall not say what i wish for cause i thought wishes wont come true if you spill it.
10. Which song brings you memories?
Wherever You Will Go & High.
11. If you have got into a trouble, who do you think will come and help you?
Bestfriends & friends ( ? )
12. How is your dream boy/girl is like?
it's for me to know and for you to find out :D
13. Would you choose to rescue your stead or bestfriend when they are drowning?
Well, can i choose both?
14. If there is a chance, who will you choose to spend your lifetime with?
Family & we'll see in the future.
15. Who is the one you choose to kill if there's only one chance?
no one, lol!?
16. From top to toe, which part do you like to change?
nothing! im happy with myself and i thank God for that. (:
17. Who is the one you wanna love most?
Family, My dearest friends & ( fill in the blank )
18.Would you choose to be rich or happy?
Happy.
19. Would you betray someone close to you just because of money?
oh puh-leasee! of course not!
20. What is the thing that you wanna do the most?
im really lost and i really dont know.
The 10 person to complete and pass on the survey are:
anyoneeeeeeeeeeee! (:
BIRTHDAY GREETINGS! (:
Happy Belated To ... Philip ( 23rd May ), John Thomas ( 24th May ), Rhiena Mye ( 25th May ), my dad ( 26th May )
Happy birthday to Tito Boy ( kat's dad, haha. )
and Happy advanced Ranelle Mae! :D ( 28th May )
byeeeeeee.
i'll take a month
had cac party last night annnnnnnnnd it was okayokay. left early with john and brendon. well, dad didn't say what time i should be home but i went home early anyway - 8.30pm :D im sucha goodie goodie good girl :D well cause i kinda felt bad as i went home " late " the night before - 8.45pm. what's up with thaaaaaat? tsktsk. i was in a good mood when ... screw everything laaaah. i think if i didn't control myself, i'll be now in the court. accused of murder, no kidding. my devil side is starting to show up again, beware and im serioussssss!
MONTH OF MAY SUCK , BIG TIME!
today, i went to school with mom to get my report book. tsssssk, ms bhavani said im distracted lately and she doesnt know why. mom said maybe im in love. ms bhavani gave me that smile lor, tsktsk. mom always talks crap, grrrrr. got 15th position for class like zomggxzxzxz! failed three freaking subs. as usual, dad wasn't happy but thank god he didn't make noise. heh, i thank lifejacket and bestfriend for the " tip " :D but i was really scared when i reached home. after talking to ms bhavani, mom and i headed to gombak. sigggh, primary school days! ): i think mom was thinking of going to alvin's house, i called but no one picked up, tsktsk.
anyway, heard actually today need to go for party but cancelled. tsktsk, i wanna go outtt! never mind never mind. monday there's some friendly match with swiss cottage, confirm lose. tuesday got english remedial, tsssssssssssssssssssk. zooomg, i need tuition. and im starting to talk rubbish here, seriously. well, on a good note , it's ...
H.O.L.I.D.A.Y :D
anways, we had maths trail on thursday and it was held in CHANGI AIRPORT! grrrrr, of all places laaaaah! we didn't go to T3. didn't know why but i partly wanted to go there and rmb the last day with aly. i was feeeling soooo ... i saw filipino families who had just touched down and are gonna enjoy their holidays here. siggggggh, i was THISSSS close to going to one of the ticketing office and buy myself a ticket and FLYYYYYYY. lifejacket counted how many times ive said the word fly. siggh, i really badly wanna flyyy. dad said i'll have to wait for december. speaking of december, i cant waaaaaaait! mom said i'll be missing a week of school :DD well be attending two weddings of my cousins, muahaha. same family but had to be a different year cause of sukob (?) never mind never mind, i shall wait theeen. till here laaaah, so long winded.
KELVIN YOU BETTER BE READING THIS, I WANT THE BULLFIGHTING CD BY TUESDAY! :DD
byee.
it all started with one hello
look at the time and im still awake. just a small update, im in the mood out of no where. i wanna sleep late tonight but dad said that we'll be going jogging tmr, pfffffft! i dont wanna wake up 6.30am just to jog! tsktsk. oh well, i doubt im able to go west coast tmr. family day, as usual. arggggh, i wanna go cycling :/ know what? im going nowhere right now. i shall end, im being random. lol!
byeeeeeeeee!
1month1moreday! :D
your name written all over my paper
300th post! :D
zooooooooooomg, i wanna fly to philippines really really badly! ): i wanna be all alone, forget that i actually had a life in Singapore. nights are getting depressing, lifejacket knows it. due to depressing nights, my night ended up at being sucky. i just wanna fly to pinas and forget about everything as in everything. like what i said, forget that i had a life here. ive thought about it late last night before i go to sleep. yeees, im risking right now. there's something ive left behind and i know i have to face it. well, i aint depressed cause of that. i think im just too weak right now. with so much stress and happenings right now, what's there not to feel depressed anyway?
okay okay, that sounds depresing. but the flights are cheeeeeeeeeap! :DD it's a school holiday there right now anyway, so i'll be able to hang out with my cousins! :D im so excited just thinking about this. yeah, there's some chances that i'll be going back that's for sure ( abangan sa susunond araw :D ) well, im lazy to talk about my day at Jurong Bird Park. just a few lines. mom forced me out of bed so i had to go. kind of enjoyed my day today, shocking! saw a supppppper cute guy :/ i shall let the pictures do the talking. (:
four birds went to kyle and i thought of M.A.R.K :D
stupid bridge made my heart beat fast like heaven and hell.
byeeeeeeeeeeeee! i shall go now! (: ♥
P/S: i rmb it now. it's CHICKEN PALABOK! :D was washing the dishes when i rmbed :/
i just cant. ( 1month3moredays! :D ) hopes crashed. ):
dreaded the last moments
1year8months! :D
class was, as usual, slaaaaaaack! tsktsk. got back physics and english. pfffft, i failed physics! screw you physics! ): i studied like tooting hard with hilary and john. i was confident cause i thought it was easy. in the end? i got 3/30 for section B. damn toot can? i just passed english, shockingggg. i better not slack already laaaaaah! tuition for maths and science, here i cooooooooome! :D mr ong didn't come to school, again. sooo, we didn't get to recieve maths paper. tssssssk! today, heng no need to get interviewed for the cac. had sc interview annnnnd, i didn't know how to answer. was nervous laaaaaah! mr hong kept shooting questions, how to answer i ask you?
and ms bhavani said there'll be interview for those who wanna go cambodia. gen and i looked at each other. like the hell? go to cambodia also need interview, how retarded? anyway, was alone almost the whole day today. read book :D went to jurong library to look for new books. tssssk, i suddenly didn't have to mood to look for new books. i laze around :/ finished my book and talked to kat. we went to JE and walked around. headed home and parents made me meet them at raffles. i had like 10 - 15mins to get ready! dad stressed me up, tsktsk. had to meet at 7pm and i was still on the phone with dad at 6.15pm. of course i arrived late, dad almost went home :/ ate at Lau Pa Si (?) aiyahh, something like that. we took one big round to find jolly v.
Me: uhhh, papa what are you looking for??
dad: jolly v!
me: mummy, is there such thing as jollibee?
mum: i dont know, ask your papa.
we kept walking. my dad turned suddenly and went towards a stall. i looked and saw JOLLY V!
me: cheeeeeeeeeeey! i thought jollibee!
of course my face fell. the foods were like chicken, spag and burgers (?) but i smiled when i heard:
the lady: chicken something ( i had a sudden mental block! :/ )
well, she was in her taglish accent. my dad looked at me and knew what i was thinking. haha, i dont know why but i feel happy when there's a pinoy around me :/ gooosh, guys/man has HUGE appetite! went home and talked with my mom almost the whole journey back :D
might be having chalet during june holiday, like yay! it has been ages, seriously! im forcing my dad to make the arrangement ASAP :D buuuuuuut, of course it'll be boring. look at how old my siblings are, tsssssssk. i dont know why, but im looking forward to june holidays! :D i aint gonna plan anything with kat right now caaaaause, whatever we plan for wont happen. anyway, i hate last night! ): one word for last night was ... DEPRESSING! aiyaaaah, whatever laah! sigggh. i think my post is long. :D i better get going, tsktsk.
byeeeeeee!
1month4moredays! :D
random.
P/S: i badly miss that closeness. argggggh, regina! shut up now! sigggggggggh.
if you still go i'll understand
randooooooom! i dont know how i landed into blogger. never mind, since im here i shall do a small mini update. school day was slack-ish. the only lessons we had was pure history and elective geog plus some fourm thing thing. the rest was free period. i think it was during maths, we played truth or dare. lol! partly retarded? i dont know, haha. left school at around 3.30pm. we planned to go westmall to eat but since we got sooo lazy, we went all the way to Jurong Point :D yeees, we're retarded, we even slept in the bus. we went to grab something to eat and went to take 157. thank god double decker came and kat kind of got high. haha, damn retarded.
actually nothing much. planned to go home and sleeep but i had to submit my geography project so yeap. i better get going. i actually cant use that long. till here people! (:
byeeeeeee!
eh, why so emotional? sigggggh.
the best of romances
just watched my big love on youtube. muahaha, the show is pretty okay. i asked lifejacket to accompany me watch. who else would accompany me that would understand it? awww, such a great lifejacket. thanks to kat for telling me that there's my big love on youtube or else i'll be stuck with fruits basket :/ i think i need to go and look for more shows to watch, exams over. tsktsk! this is irritating, during exam week i had like a million things to watch and yet now that it's over, i've got nothing NOTHING. i wanna bury myself with books for the next couple of days. i dont wanna find my day boring. woke up today, feeling cold. thank god there's no school or else i'll be too lazy to get my butt out of the house. speaking of that, that's the reason why im home the whole day today :/
was asked out but aly happened to be online soooooo, we had talks. called kat to come online too. as usual, we had our never-ending-goodbyes. i miss the those times, siggggh. ohhh, i wanna watch supah papalicious and when love begins. tssssssssk. i wanna fly to philippines cause i wanna waaaaaaatch! )): damn, school's out next week. how fast can that be? siggggh! whooooops, i missed 20 mins of my show. argggggggh! i better get going. better learn to keep track of time.
byeeeee!
1 month and 6 more days! :D
memoriesssss
seriously, we were laughing here and kat was screaming that my hair was blocking.
there goes my hair again. hahaha.
bye.
know what? EXAMS ARE FINALLY O.V.E.R! :D before we come to that, i feel like talking my sunday.
even though sundays are family day, i hate sunday.
even though during sundays, we're suppose to be happy.
but this sunday, i hated it ALOT. i slept at 4am the day before and dad woke me up at 7plus the next day. i got pissed the moment i woke up cause the first words i heard was: wake up, we're going to church. of course i protested! it didn't woke, i was frigging pissed like nobody's business. i had to go anyway or else i'll be killed (im just kidding.) i was so mad that i didn't even bother greeting my mom happy mother's day or giving her her gift. know why i was pissed? i had cat class at 10 and we HAD to go for mass. i hate being forced to go for mass twice, honestly. i went and before leaving the house, my dad lost the parish youth camp form. the even got me more pissed. i knew my day would be worst.
left the mass 5 mins earlier and met kat. went for cat class and stoned during the next mass but i did payed attention for a while :D today was the last cat class till the first sunday of july. like yeeeeeeeeeees! i'll get to have VERY late saturday night :D then stayed in church till the 12.30pm mass ended which was at around 1.30pm. talked to bryan keong for a while, talking shit lah he. then i went home annnnnnnnd I GOT LOCKED OUT. i got even pissed. of all days, i didn't bring my house key and wallet. and i didn't know how the hell a 2 dollar note got into my bag. called my mom and uh-huh lost my temper. called kat and it took her 5mins 35secs to convince me to go back to church since she was still there.
i told her i wont be eating but she forced me anyway. i LOVE her, seriously. she turned my horrible sunday into a wonderful sunday. we went to walk walk around, crapped and all. we had oreo latte and went to our secret place. there, we crapped like hell. i'll upload a few photos we took once my mom gets home and give me the USB cable for the phone. of course, i went home feeling waaaaaay better. that's why i love her so much.
anyway, today's last paper was chem and went to celebrate the end of exam with kat and john. we had succccccccccccch a great time. we watched OVER HER DEAD BODY. the movies nice and frigging funny. was laughing like a retard, seriously. and of course, i bet i made a fool of myself again cause there were a few people and i laughed kind of loud. kat even mentioned that i sat feeling at home. haha, that's so retarded. we wanted to take neoprint but no $$$. pathetic but yeeah, we had such a great time together. i looooooove today too :DD so yeeeap, actually that's all. haha. (:
byeeeeeeeee! <33
RANDOM.
all my life, i pray for someone like you. and i thank god that i finally found you. all my life, i pray for someone like you. yes, i pray that you feel the same way too.
will you be there to pick me up when i fall?
and that's ramdzan
the birthday cake of sis.
haha, the birthday girl! (:
and the GORADA family. ignore the three kids. they were showing retarded faces especially the two boys. -.-
hellohello! (:
yaaaaaay! ive got one more paper to goooooo! :DD so anyway, physcis was okayokay. thanks for the help hilary and john! trust me, if i pass, i'll be jumping for joy. cause without their help, i'll go into the classroom with blank mind. i dont pay attention during physics :/ geog was ... normal normal. with the help of dulcie during break time, i think i did okay. haha. but the only thing was that the topic we concentrated on didn't really come out. such a bummer. ): my hand was hurting, too many essays already. tsktsk. after geog, went out with kat. had a small mini girl talk with her today.
suppose to watch movie today but it was a last minute decision and she did not have enough money. so we went to JP, ate then took 154. went to JLP, talked a while then take 154 again all the way to KAP. then went home. slacked the whole day today, haha. yay, monday no need to go to sch which is good. got four days to study chem, heh. better get going. it's kinda late already. need to catch my sleeeep. (:
byeeeee! <3
sana ma laman mo
im trying my best to refrain myself not to update but i need entertainment right now. im also trying to refrain myself from watching any movies/dramas. ive got 3 more papers left. i think im gonna die for physics. ive got nothing about physics in my mind, seriously. im sleepy now but im refraining myself from reading book or else i'll sleep. john said later have to meet him, kat and hilary at KAP. tsktsk. im kinda lazy to go all the to KAP :/ buuuut, there's physics so yeeeap. ive got physics and geography tmr. most 'hated' subject? didn't know CLB also have test -.- the paper was eaaaaasy, i think. english was normal. maths was !!! screw paper 1! i needed just 5 more mins to do my last question of paper2! i lost a total of 18 marks for paper2. not counting other carelessness or whatsoever. pfffft, im gonna dieeeee! ss was love :D i dont know why but i was confident for ss.
then had art. time flew by soooooo fast! almost couldn't finish it. the last few minutes anyhow whack already. 3 hours leh! bestfriend never wait for me, tsktsk. haha. today was pure history. damn, screw LON! screw youuuuuuuu! actually i can do well for pure history but cause i slept from 3pm to 8pm last night, so didn't have enough time to get everything in my mind. while dulcie was getting high studying history just now, my mind was blank. i couldn't get everything in my head lah, tssssssk. hopefully i'll do well, in my dreams? ive got nothing to update laaaah. im so sleepy, i wanna sleep but i dont want to pang seh john and kat like ytd. haha, call me pig. i better get going and do my geography project :/ yeeeeeees, it has been ages since the due date! im forcing myself to do it now.
byeeee!
siggh, i miss bestfriend! muffin, i miss you laaaaaah! )): hopefully indi tayo mag ganito hanggang for life. okay, im talking shyt stuff pero babae! i miss you talaga! hopefully yung un-closeness natin is cause of exams at indi other reasons. a DEEP girl talk is seriously needed! <3333
P/S: life jacket is tooooooo random today. scaryyyyy. :/
remainings of it
hellohello.
ohmygooosh! it's MAY! super dee duper fast! )): tmr is the starting of the first paper. even though i take CLB, still have to go to school and take the test. tssssssk. i thought we're able to go to school late but i got the wrong message. pffffft, chinese chinese. i bet i'll anyhow bomb. if only im like roy. he anyhow bomb can get 8/10. damn jealous, haha. ohhhh and he's bragging cause he was the highest. WHATEVER, roy! haha. eeee, i dont like letter writing laaaah! anyway, today is labor day so no school. was stuck at home the whole day, pathetic? talked to kathleen for a while. i got soo encouraged, i was in the mood to study. realised i didn't have notebook, i went to the market. i was random, yes i know! i walked around looking for nice notebooks but i couldn't but i didn't go home empty handed ooookay! haha. buuuuuuuuut, when i reach home, the only thing i did was write my study schedule. i TRIED studying physics but i almost fell asleep :/ i regret not paying attention during lesson. i dont understand a single thing.
was suppose to study physics, ss and do my art today but i lost the mood. damnit, im so pathetic. so im now trying to do my geography project and im dyinggggg, like seriously. but at least ive started, haha. was kinda stressed up cause my dad was at the background teaching brother maths and he kept raising him voice. damn distracting. so today, all i did was read book and watch tv. been eating on food like every hour or so. i was craving for some food, mom thought i was pregnant :/ obviously i wasn't. something's wrong with me laaah. at this very moment, im hungry AGAIN even though i just had my dinner like an hour ago :/ anyway anyway, i better get going. decided to rest from geography project a while so blogged, haha. i think i'll be able to blog once mid years is over. I CANT WAIT!
so once again, GOOD LUCK PEOPLE FOR YOUR MID-YEARS! STUDY HARD YEEEAH? enjoy once it's over. ((:
byeeeee! with love, meeee! :D im random.
