Thursday, October 16, 2008
nothing but mistakes
nothing but mistakes
blaaaah! ):
know what? i was damn damn damn damn tempted to take that rusty penknife in my pencil box and tear my maths paper into thousands of pieces till i see nothing but nothing (?). ignore that stupid line. but i swear i was. paper 1 was full of careless mistakes that i swear i almost killed he an. imagine losing 23 marks just for that paper 1. gaaaaaaaah, screw it upside down! ): i failed geography, as usuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal! this time round is cause i didn't even touch geog the night before, i concentrated on chemistry so if i didn't do well for chem, i'll just jump down the building.
next year, retain or not, i'll try try try try try tryyyyy to freaking open that geography book of mine few nights before exam ( like i can like that. ) the only paper that made me happy was SS, i unexpectedly pass that paper and i didn't really study for it. kay whatever! i still got pure history, physics, chemistry and english to go. know what? i seriously need to kill myself soon. i cant believe my english isnt improving at all, i feel that. siggggh, i have a feeling im gonna retain. see my results, no hope already. i just hope that tmr, the papers i see will make me feel more better besides physics.
at least the accompany of bbff has cheered me up. i think i talked too much today :/ omg, i sawalot a few of my primary school friends that ive never seen for a long time. it's 11.10pm now and i bet i cant sleep cause i slept on the sofa, my sleeping pill, for 4 hrs. i think that sofa has some curse cause i'll always fall asleep no matter what, even though i drank alot of coke today. mom and aunties have stated preparing for the party on saturday, sigh. i shall eat all the food they've cooked before anyone is able to eat, i bet they're gonna finish it by the time i come back. youth rally is 10 freaking hrs long! i heard a couple of churches are going with their youths, cooooool! :D
shall go off here and look for something to kill time. bye!
my hands turned cold,
cold sweats appeared,
my face went hot and red,
and my heart started racing.
i felt those today.
too dramatic as it may seem but true.
♥
know what? i was damn damn damn damn tempted to take that rusty penknife in my pencil box and tear my maths paper into thousands of pieces till i see nothing but nothing (?). ignore that stupid line. but i swear i was. paper 1 was full of careless mistakes that i swear i almost killed he an. imagine losing 23 marks just for that paper 1. gaaaaaaaah, screw it upside down! ): i failed geography, as usuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal! this time round is cause i didn't even touch geog the night before, i concentrated on chemistry so if i didn't do well for chem, i'll just jump down the building.
next year, retain or not, i'll try try try try try tryyyyy to freaking open that geography book of mine few nights before exam ( like i can like that. ) the only paper that made me happy was SS, i unexpectedly pass that paper and i didn't really study for it. kay whatever! i still got pure history, physics, chemistry and english to go. know what? i seriously need to kill myself soon. i cant believe my english isnt improving at all, i feel that. siggggh, i have a feeling im gonna retain. see my results, no hope already. i just hope that tmr, the papers i see will make me feel more better besides physics.
at least the accompany of bbff has cheered me up. i think i talked too much today :/ omg, i saw
shall go off here and look for something to kill time. bye!
my hands turned cold,
cold sweats appeared,
my face went hot and red,
and my heart started racing.
i felt those today.
too dramatic as it may seem but true.
♥
what we could have been, 10:56 PM.
