Monday, August 31, 2009
but i just dont see the signs
but i just dont see the signs
goodbye august!
another month is gone just like that and prelims is partly done. ive got chem paper2, clb and chem/phy paper1 left. then it's september holidays, right? idk when the holiday is and it doesnt matter cause we'll be needed in sch anyway.
this week, i party like crazy. kay, not really. but i spent most of my night out :D friday was dinner with my parents and accompanying my parents to get some golf lucky draw prizes that my dad is involved every month. then i was made to take cab home with all the heavy stuff. sheeeesh. they went over to st james power station to drink, as usual. the next day, i spent the whole day lying on my bed. then off to church. yes, i stoned for one hour tdy, as usual. rest at home a while then off to a birthday party. surprises await, im lazy to elaborate. the next day, i went shopping with auntie malek cum bonding session with her. ahhhh, i have funnnnnnnnnn! i should do this more often after o lvl. to think that you're having an auntie living in the same house as you but you dont really talk to each other. lol. that shows how singapore can keep one busy. after that, i went over to ranelle's house for a mini gathering. i got hooked up with some anime titled Fullmental smth. lol.
oh and i did some reminiscing with ranelle. i cant believe i managed to save 80 bucks of coins when i was pri5 and spent that money for christmas shopping for my family. and i went with ranelle. that was the first and the last time we went out together alone, without our family. good old memories. and i remembered how we'll go down to the playground everyday and play with the guys. we'll be jumping here and there, there and here like we're boys. sigggggh! right now, i cant even do those anymore. shucks! i miss those days, dangggg.
today was teacher's day celebration and i really dont know what's wrong with the sch. 2.4km walk before the performance?! :O are you insane, seriously? but performance was wild, well more like 4/2 was wild. we couldn't stop screaming. performance wasnt so bad. then i went out with kat, after %$$#^%$# years. after standing at the bus stop, we decided to take the next bus that would stop which was 970. we ended up dropping at alexandra road, i think. somewhere near tanglin sch and took 51. we actually thought of dropping at kallang or further. but we dropped at bugis and ate. then we walked ard iluma. nothing much also ah. we spent so much time at this particular shop, it wasnt so bad. we had problems looking for toilets, lol. by then it was almost 3 so we decided to head home since kat had to be home early. we crossed the road and took 960. we saw the national library and found ourselves going down the next stop and walked towards the library.
then we spent the next hour looking at the books. omgggg, i just love reading! :/ ive got about 5 more books to date for the next few weeeks, heh :D even john said library's like my second home, lol. kay, im suddenly proclaiming my book obsession here, lol. then we went home. i knocked out in the bus and got woken up by kat telling im reaching my place soon. lol. but idk why i didnt sleep back. oh yay, sch tmr! mugging for chemistry tmr :D
ah craaaap. i still got detention to serve. %^&$*$%^$#!
bye.
i trusted you and now i hate you.
thanks for being concerned.
i want this to be known to you, bastard.
what we could have been, 5:58 PM.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
together as one
together as one
On this day of your life, Regina, we believe God wants you to know... ... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.
You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.
i'll do just that.
genny gen gen took out her braces today! ♥
the feeling of the raindrops dripping on my face felt nice.
if only the rain was stronger.
i would've stood there, raining my eyes out.
no one will know.
what we could have been, 9:36 PM.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
i'll make every second count
i'll make every second count
helloooooooooooo.
gah. prelims is currently on now and it doesnt seem like prelims though it's in the hall. breeze through every paper. how awesome is that? lol. kay not breeze through but i was able to manage it. but tmr's dooms day for me cause .. i didnt do anything for art. now laugh at me plsssss! ): they're seriously torturing us laaaaaaa! need to chiong on the final and 8 boards plus prelims?! :O are you like insane?! ):
oh and i had oral ytd. lol! flea market .. shopping .. trusting .. thief .. gaaaaaah! i felt like as if i didnt even take the oral. it was just too fast man!
oh lightening and thunder always freak the shyt out of me. ): esp last saturday night when i was still coping nights being alone in my room. the way the light flashes on your window and reflects on the mirror is just so freakyyyyy. and looking at the room, it felt so big .. so lonely. baaaaah, i couldn't take it so i grabbed my pillows to sleep in my parents room. lol. i should've done this earlier - sleeping alone. but ever since young, i have that fear of being all alone in a room so dark.
shucks that is super emote talaga. lol.
school hall's fan is just tooooooo strong. i'll be freezing while doing the papers, you dont know how irritating that is. and the coldness just makes you get sleeeeepppy! i can just lie on the fall and sleep, i assure you that. oh and timothy was sneezing nonstop today during history/amaths. hahahahaha! i so totally couldn't stop laughing cause he sneeze like every 2 seconds for 5 times or more in a row. vivian was laughing till her face was .. reeeed!
dang, this post is all jumpy.
i shall go off and stuff more ss into this tiny brain of mine. wish me luck for art tmr! :D im so gonna stone for 3 hours, not.
goodnight friends.
till idk when.
gah. prelims is currently on now and it doesnt seem like prelims though it's in the hall. breeze through every paper. how awesome is that? lol. kay not breeze through but i was able to manage it. but tmr's dooms day for me cause .. i didnt do anything for art. now laugh at me plsssss! ): they're seriously torturing us laaaaaaa! need to chiong on the final and 8 boards plus prelims?! :O are you like insane?! ):
oh and i had oral ytd. lol! flea market .. shopping .. trusting .. thief .. gaaaaaah! i felt like as if i didnt even take the oral. it was just too fast man!
oh lightening and thunder always freak the shyt out of me. ): esp last saturday night when i was still coping nights being alone in my room. the way the light flashes on your window and reflects on the mirror is just so freakyyyyy. and looking at the room, it felt so big .. so lonely. baaaaah, i couldn't take it so i grabbed my pillows to sleep in my parents room. lol. i should've done this earlier - sleeping alone. but ever since young, i have that fear of being all alone in a room so dark.
shucks that is super emote talaga. lol.
school hall's fan is just tooooooo strong. i'll be freezing while doing the papers, you dont know how irritating that is. and the coldness just makes you get sleeeeepppy! i can just lie on the fall and sleep, i assure you that. oh and timothy was sneezing nonstop today during history/amaths. hahahahaha! i so totally couldn't stop laughing cause he sneeze like every 2 seconds for 5 times or more in a row. vivian was laughing till her face was .. reeeed!
dang, this post is all jumpy.
i shall go off and stuff more ss into this tiny brain of mine. wish me luck for art tmr! :D im so gonna stone for 3 hours, not.
goodnight friends.
till idk when.
But at times the simplest thing can make you cry becuse you hold it in too long.
what we could have been, 9:27 PM.
Monday, August 17, 2009
stay the same
stay the same
heeeeeeeeeey!
so today's a different monday for me. it's suppose to be blue monday or smth right? but i was all bubbly the whole day. i just couldn't stop smiling. maybe cause i do pretty well for specimen o lvl paper2. nyahahahaha. first time in my life, i swear! just that small news can light up my day what more other stuffs. lol.
i was in the mood to do alot of things tdy as a result. i was being super makulit and i think ive irritated kat john and gen too much. im even almost there for my final artwork. well, just the face, lol. and then i did matrices paper! :D after that i spent few hours during art. my gosh! i feel like ive nvr wasted my monday away :D
and so im a happy happy girl! heh. i better get going. my auntie wanna check her email. i just wish i'll be all smiles this week, baaaaaaah! gosh. idk why i get so irritated certain people nowadays. must be the mood swing i suppose. i wanna watch movieeeeeeeeeee! ): im so hooked on Full House that i got nagged by kat. i cant wait for o lvl to finish and i shall go for intensive dramas, heeeeeeeeh!
goodnight people.
(:
so today's a different monday for me. it's suppose to be blue monday or smth right? but i was all bubbly the whole day. i just couldn't stop smiling. maybe cause i do pretty well for specimen o lvl paper2. nyahahahaha. first time in my life, i swear! just that small news can light up my day what more other stuffs. lol.
i was in the mood to do alot of things tdy as a result. i was being super makulit and i think ive irritated kat john and gen too much. im even almost there for my final artwork. well, just the face, lol. and then i did matrices paper! :D after that i spent few hours during art. my gosh! i feel like ive nvr wasted my monday away :D
and so im a happy happy girl! heh. i better get going. my auntie wanna check her email. i just wish i'll be all smiles this week, baaaaaaah! gosh. idk why i get so irritated certain people nowadays. must be the mood swing i suppose. i wanna watch movieeeeeeeeeee! ): im so hooked on Full House that i got nagged by kat. i cant wait for o lvl to finish and i shall go for intensive dramas, heeeeeeeeh!
goodnight people.
(:
and you're the other reason why im smiling.
what we could have been, 9:25 PM.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
was it all a dream?
was it all a dream?
have you ever been in love?
have you ever felt how far a heart can fall?
have you ever stayed up
waiting for a telephone call?
just to hear her say hello cause you missed each other so.
have you ever been in love?
Have there been times to laugh
And times you really want to cry
Finding reasons to believe her
'Cause you'd die a little if she lied
And when in times of doubt
Have you ever tried to work it out
But still she leaves you wondering
What it's all about
im willing to put it all down,
for love.
what we could have been, 6:28 PM.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
never thought i'll be loved like this
never thought i'll be loved like this
hello!
yes, it's the end of the week! :D
sch's totally drowning me ah and so much for isolating myself during that 4-days holiday. everyday also got places to go -.- i havent touched on my eight board for art and i still need to prepare for prelims art. well, ive been pretty happy this week cause im doing pretty well for maths. and i really wanna thank ms tan when she leaves us for NIE. big time man! ive never passed my maths ever since last year. so you dont know how happy i am.
right now, im gonna study maths at least an hour or do then ive got to concentrate on my sciences alrdy. gooooooooosh! i feeling so motivated for o lvl, lol. just hope when o lvl is very near, i'll still be feeling motivated and all. a deal made with my dad and i just hope to end this year happily.
maths lesson tdy isnt so bad. i learnt smth and we did papers agaaaain. there's english after that but i didnt go, heh. didnt felt like it. like went to westmall for john and gen to have lunch. gosh, john's being so protective today, hahaha. anw, im supposed to go out and get some shopping done but seems like everyone's lazy at home so i decided to use the com a while and start studying for my sciences and do art. i totally dont mind, really. i got the mood tdy.
i better leave now. im starting to get sleepy plus tempted to watch drama. * bangs head against the wall *
goodbye.
yes, it's the end of the week! :D
sch's totally drowning me ah and so much for isolating myself during that 4-days holiday. everyday also got places to go -.- i havent touched on my eight board for art and i still need to prepare for prelims art. well, ive been pretty happy this week cause im doing pretty well for maths. and i really wanna thank ms tan when she leaves us for NIE. big time man! ive never passed my maths ever since last year. so you dont know how happy i am.
right now, im gonna study maths at least an hour or do then ive got to concentrate on my sciences alrdy. gooooooooosh! i feeling so motivated for o lvl, lol. just hope when o lvl is very near, i'll still be feeling motivated and all. a deal made with my dad and i just hope to end this year happily.
maths lesson tdy isnt so bad. i learnt smth and we did papers agaaaain. there's english after that but i didnt go, heh. didnt felt like it. like went to westmall for john and gen to have lunch. gosh, john's being so protective today, hahaha. anw, im supposed to go out and get some shopping done but seems like everyone's lazy at home so i decided to use the com a while and start studying for my sciences and do art. i totally dont mind, really. i got the mood tdy.
i better leave now. im starting to get sleepy plus tempted to watch drama. * bangs head against the wall *
goodbye.
cause you never knew.
what we could have been, 2:39 PM.
Sunday, August 09, 2009
love isnt that selfish
love isnt that selfish
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
daaaaaaamn!
my siblings and i stood one row in front of the tv saying the pledge :D
anyway, so much for locking myself inside my room to get my art done. friday night was spent with family watching movie, UP. ehhhhh, it's nice! very meaningful. i give it 4/5 :D pretty funny too, the kids love it. lol. then i spent my saturday at jurong library for the supposed intensive study with kat and archille but i got restless a while so i started reading book till we left ard 630. went o yew tee to meet my parents and ranelle's fam to go to some party.
alvin came and ramdzan too! awesome bonding with the childhood friends, heh. the adults were pretty high, i just couldn't stop laughing. asides from feeling sleepy, i had a great night with the childhood friends! :D we were talking about those daysssss and wow, we changed alot. like how i used to bully ramdzan and he'll end of crying :D plus how much i felt superior to the two of them cause i was taller. awww, those were the days. heh. we got home 12 plus and the parents were still high.
went for 1230 mass tdy and lol! before the priest take his leave, they played the national anthem. anyway, went to imm for lunch. by then i was feeling really dead. dad wasnt with us cause he's in indonesia for overnight, having the time of his life playing golf. lol. i escaped from spending my night at some filipino concert tdy, heh :D i was like sleepy and all plus i had art to complete. nah, i didnt even touch it. i got busy watching the parade :/ this year's seems more grand, lol. anyway, singapore idol's next. i dont wanna stay too long updating. heh :D so i shall go off now.
oh unglam pics in alvin's blogggg. tsssssssssk! thanks alot man. hahaha.
bye.
im so worn out!
what we could have been, 8:22 PM.
Friday, August 07, 2009
like words and melody
like words and melody
hello!
oh oh it's 070809! :D
sigh. so school has been a boring routine for me, seriously. everything is sch sch sch sch or rather, maths maths maths since ms tan has been throwing alot of homeworks at us. art due date 14th of august. next week only for 3 days of lesson. tell me how to complete?! i shall bury myself with this 4 days of holiday. maybe i'll lock myself up in the room day and night. lol, no life! ahhhhhh, ive got no life now. shyt.
tmr got party to go to * smacks head against the wall. im sure my dad would want me to go, arghhhhh. kay, im complaining alot now. ):
TGIF, not! no physics lessons till 22 of august on saturdays! :D buuuut ive got millions of homework to do. oh and prelims in 18 more days. anw, my week was not the best week eveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer! it's worst than living my life without my phone. ohhh ohhh, my baby's back after 2 days with my dad :D kay anyway, i think i was having major pms. kay no no it's not major pms. basta! i just dont understand why i'll get uber duper quiet most of the time.
kay, ignore me. im gonna go out with my family later to catch UP. since the siblings requested it. at least ive got time to watch Full House. yes yes, despite all the complains ive been flaring up there i still got time to watch dramas. hahaha :D well, i gotta take a time off. seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy! ive done too much in a week. i miss going home early. ): i just hope that doing too much maths will make me improve my maths :D i got 40/80 for my first mock o lvl paper and you dont know how shock i was! nyhahahaha! jia you reg.
i shall go off and enjoy Full House! :D
i lovey lovey lovey loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee you people.
belated happy 1 monthsary genny gen gen and pare koyyyyyyy - bestfriend J! winks.
oh oh it's 070809! :D
sigh. so school has been a boring routine for me, seriously. everything is sch sch sch sch or rather, maths maths maths since ms tan has been throwing alot of homeworks at us. art due date 14th of august. next week only for 3 days of lesson. tell me how to complete?! i shall bury myself with this 4 days of holiday. maybe i'll lock myself up in the room day and night. lol, no life! ahhhhhh, ive got no life now. shyt.
tmr got party to go to * smacks head against the wall. im sure my dad would want me to go, arghhhhh. kay, im complaining alot now. ):
TGIF, not! no physics lessons till 22 of august on saturdays! :D buuuut ive got millions of homework to do. oh and prelims in 18 more days. anw, my week was not the best week eveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer! it's worst than living my life without my phone. ohhh ohhh, my baby's back after 2 days with my dad :D kay anyway, i think i was having major pms. kay no no it's not major pms. basta! i just dont understand why i'll get uber duper quiet most of the time.
kay, ignore me. im gonna go out with my family later to catch UP. since the siblings requested it. at least ive got time to watch Full House. yes yes, despite all the complains ive been flaring up there i still got time to watch dramas. hahaha :D well, i gotta take a time off. seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy! ive done too much in a week. i miss going home early. ): i just hope that doing too much maths will make me improve my maths :D i got 40/80 for my first mock o lvl paper and you dont know how shock i was! nyhahahaha! jia you reg.
i shall go off and enjoy Full House! :D
i lovey lovey lovey loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee you people.
belated happy 1 monthsary genny gen gen and pare koyyyyyyy - bestfriend J! winks.
like ive mentioned,
we seem to be going in circles and this time,
i just wanna get out of that circle.
one moment you make me so happy,
the next moment you make me wish you didnt enter my life.
and so i shall make use of my 4days ..
moving on and letting go.
what we could have been, 2:03 PM.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
you cant love everyone
you cant love everyone
Hello August.
what we could have been, 11:59 PM.
